Ok so here’s the deal. I can stand up for myself to strangers (like if someone is being rude or disrespectful), but it’s friends (or people I think are friends or possible friends like acquaintances) I have a trouble speaking up too.
I think the main reason is because #1, it doesn’t happen very often (most of my friends/acquaintances are not jerks I have to defend myself to)
#2. When it does happen, it just feels really off the wall and I’m so surprised I can’t think of anything to say 😛 And whenever it happens I feel bad, like I should have said something (or if I said something, I feel like I should have said something else )
#3. I hate hate hate when people say cruel things in a joking manner and then tell you to lighten up. I legit just do not know what to do with that.