I’m Kim. I’m 19 and just finished my freshman year of college, and throughout the year, my faith-related habits slowly got worse and worse. I graduated from a private Christian school where I went from kindergarten through senior year, so I grew up with the Christian belief system all around me. We would have devotionals in school as well as weekly chapel; prayer was encouraged, and some teachers even took prayer requests. Overall, it was a very Christ-centered 13 years of my life at that school. I now attend a public state university, and as you can imagine, nothing about that place encourages God or anything spiritual. (If I could’ve afforded a private Christian college I would have, but the ones near me are ridiculously expensive.) At first I attended a church and went to a Tuesday night small group, but I slowly stopped going on the excuse of homework or being too tired or wanting a night to myself. By the end of the year, I hardly even thought about it. I still consider myself a Christian, as nothing I believe in has changed; but I feel like I’m not always acting like it. Deep down I really want to get into better habits and feel more alive in my faith (if that makes sense), and it actually really irritates me that I’m just so apathetic. But I can’t seem to stop being apathetic towards it. To be honest, I’ve been a bit more apathetic to things in general than I have been. It started towards the middle of fall semester, and it went on and off throughout the rest of the year. I just had/have no drive to do anything productive other than go to work (since I’m “forced” to and I know I need the money). My mom thinks I’m just being lazy, but I don’t know what’s wrong with me. The only thing that ever really sounds appealing anymore is sitting in bed and watching Netflix/scrolling through social media or hanging out with friends.
Basically, I’m feeling pretty spiritually dead and apathetic towards my faith lately, and it’s lasted a while. I don’t know what to do. I’ve tried praying but it feels like nobody’s listening and I’m just talking to myself. I want to change deep down, but I feel like I physically cannot make myself feel passionate about my faith or much of anything else. Anyone have any advice?
|May 26, 2016 at 20:52|
Hey! I struggled with that a lot in high school.. and i still struggle with apathy and procrastination to this day.
Now about your faith in God and not feeling the fire is a common struggle, the thing is we need to keep pressing in. No matter how busy life gets always carve out those 10 minutes of your day. I like to pray early in the morning, which i personally think is the best time, but do what works for you. Just don’t ever give up! Even if you miss a morning of prayer or something, just put on a podcast ( I LOVE RADICAL BY DAVID PLATT!) and keep going. Or even just meditate on one verse during the day and memorize it! Also worshipping and praising God really helps me to shift my day’s focus to God, so i listen to a lot of worship and praise music as I go abot my day, it reminds me of how awesome God is.
making to do lists also sometimes helps me to stay focused and not procrastinate but i know it can be hard. Just do your best to take life one day at a time with Christ, one task at a time with Christ. Whew! ok, sorry if i bored you with my ramblings.. and i hope at least one of these tips help
|June 3, 2016 at 22:39|
if you have any more questions feel free to ask away!
|June 5, 2016 at 16:11|
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