I’m 18 and I just graduated from high school a few days ago, meaning I’ll be off to college in the fall. I’ve attended a Christian school for thirteen years, but in a few months, I’ll be going to a public University. I love the school and I’m extremely excited, but since it’s a public college, I know I’ll have to be intentional about my faith. Recently, I’ve just been feeling spiritually dead. I want to read my Bible and pray often, but I can’t quite seem to get myself to do it. If I do open my Bible, I’m bored within 30 seconds, and when I try praying, I feel like I’m just talking to myself. I want to desire to read my Bible and grow spiritually, but I just don’t, and it makes me mad. I can’t find the drive to actually do anything about it. I know I can’t carry those poor habits into college, but I don’t know how to fix them when I don’t want to (even though I do). And the more I think about it, the more frustrated I get. Why can’t I get interested and invested in my faith? I have been before, but I’ve just been feeling so apathetic towards it right now. I know it’s bad, but I don’t know what to do. And I know I should pray, but I feel like I’m talking to nobody, and my mind always starts drifting to other things. My attention span for focusing on it is awful. How can I make Bible reading more interesting and get back into my faith? And why do I feel so dead?
Sorry if that sounds pathetic, but it’s how I’m feeling. This whole thing is just stressing me out and making me mad. If anyone has any encouragement, that would be much appreciated! Thanks! (:
|June 1, 2015 at 21:36|
I understand how you feel. It seems like you are feeling obligated to grow your faith and feel you “have to “. That makes it a lot harder. That has happened to me, and I think the best thing you can do is NOT force yourself to do Christian things. Remember that Christianity is not about performing a list of tasks that you have to do. It is a religion of joy , and God doesn’t want you to be stressed; he just wants to be close to you. Do you have someone you could talk to about your faith and struggles? Often times I’ve discovered that having a discussion with someone is much more interesting than doing everything by myself. I think the biggest thing is not thinking of Christianity as an obligation. Take a few days or weeks and to just reflect and think. If praying is hard, try writing out your feelings to God in a journal. That makes it harder to get lost in your own thoughts. Believe me, I definitely get where you’re coming from. Also know that it’s not all feelings; God is there always and cares about you always, no matter how disconnected we feel.
|June 2, 2015 at 18:26|
Hi don’t ever feel discourage we all get to that place sometimes. Just start small and don’t stress. Talk to God like you would talk to a friend right next to you. God don’t always answer right away. Just know that no matter what you are not alone in this. Only see if there is maybe a Christian club where you can join. Just know that God is with You even though it doesn’t feel so right now. You should read my last post on my blog take a look at choecrazy4christ.weebly.com. I will be praying. Don’t ever give up. God has got this!
|June 6, 2015 at 07:40|
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