Ok, this is gonna be a pretty selfish post and probably make a few people mad but its just how I feel right now. I spend a lot of time here on PI, mostly in the chat room, and to be honest I’m exhausted of it. And not just on there I’m tired of people in my own life too. Here’s the thing, I’m only 15, and literally no one anywhere seems to remember that. A 15 year old cannot fix everyone’s life problems. And to be more clear, I have no problem with listening to people because I totally get that every single person on this earth has struggles and hard times and occasionally needs someone. Thats fine. I guess what I’m trying to say is that sometimes I need to vent and release things too. I’m like a mailbox that gets my own mail and other peoples mail but never gets emptied. Which this is all probably my fault but j just feel like in order not to block anyone else from getting help I should just stay quiet. Also here’s what else has been bothering me ALOT. People ask me for my advice or help or opinion on something, and then argue with it. You ASKED me for it so why would you argue with me to the moon and back? I’m not gonna change it just to fit what you want to hear I’m gonna tell the truth about how I feel on what you just told me. So I really don’t get why I have to repeat myself over and over and over again in a conversation. If you don’t want help, don’t ask for it. So yeah, I guess those are all the feelings I’ve just had bottled up for a really long time. Don’t get my wrong I love helping people and I love how you can come here and get encouraged and everything but I guess you could just say I’m tired of helping people. Or that I’m tired of being so depended on. ( which sounds crazy being on the Internet but you have no idea how much pressure has been put on me to help a few people). And yeah, that’s really selfish to say but I just need to get that out.
|December 2, 2014 at 06:02|
I don’t think you’re being selfish at all! What I’ve learned is that you need to take care of yourself, eve if you feel like you’re being selfish because you’re not going to be helping yourself or anyone else if you’re not making sure you’re okay. Also you can’t fix anyone. That’s one of the hardest (and probably most important) lessons I’ve learned in my life. We can listen to others, love others, help others out, but at the end of the day, the only person we can fix, change, or take care of is ourself. You’re a wonderful girl, McKayla, and have such a loving heart. I’m praying for you, and when you need someone to listen/vent to, don’t hesitate to email me. (Marcyt.email@example.com).
|December 2, 2014 at 08:36|
I completely understand.
Feel free to share anything on the girl talk forums! (I don’t go on chat) I personally think you share great advice and thoughtful comments. If you ever want to vent or just talk you can email me too! Adventuregirl2264@yahoo.com 🙂
|December 2, 2014 at 08:47|
I totally understand, you just need a break honey. I’m sure that you give great advice and are a lovely person. Take a break sweetie. Just don’t log on for a week or so, and take some time to read your bible and chill. Take some time for yourself and eat some chocolate or something, I think you deserve it 🙂 xxxx
|December 4, 2014 at 09:21|
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