A while back I had struggled with a addiction. I had masturbated and I couldn’t stop. I had also watched porn a couple times and read sexual stories, all of which I am not proud of and deeply humiliated by. At the end of last year I was finally able to break my awful habit and not fall back into my same patterns. I am happy to say I don’t even feel the need to do it anymore and my body doesn’t “crave” it anymore. But one problem it does cause me is the fact that the guilt still follows me. I have never told anyone, other than on here, about my problems and I don’t know if I ever will be able to. I’m a baptist and when we get baptized around 16-17 we have to confess our sins to a pastor or someone like that and I honestly don’t know if I would be able to. I really regret what I have done and I know it is going to follow me wherever I go. I honestly don’t know what to do anymore and I can’t tell anyone. I don’t know how to get rid of this guilt or if I ever could. I know God forgives me and I wouldn’t have been able to over come my bad habits without him, but people aren’t as understanding as he is. I’m really lost and I don’t know what to do. Please help!
|March 23, 2015 at 18:06|
I am a Christian, I hope my story will help but if not just know that YOU ARE NOT ALONE.I don’t know much about what baptist believe either.
I struggled with something similar a while back. the only difference is I never had to tell anyone unless I wanted to. I stoped watching porn, like you, but I could not get over the guilt. It seemed to eat me alive. I asked God over and over to help me get past it. Eventually I talked to my mom about my problem. She was surprisingly understanding, but then again that’s how my mom always is. She continued to remind me all the time of gods grace and his love for me. She was there for me and continued to remind me that we are all human, we all sin, just in different ways, But God looks at all sin the same. She reminded me these things on the days where the guilt seemed harder to bear. I never really thought about what others would think about me. I thought about what I thought of me. I prayed.. A lot, every day, that God would forgive me and that he would take the guilt away. I knew in my head that God forgives me the first time I ask, but I didn’t know this truth in my heart. Now looking back, asking him to forgive me all those times were not so that he would forgive me, it was so that I could be sure, and now, I am. I know my sins are in the past, i know what I did was wrong, I asked God to forgive me, he did, all in good now. But it took a while. I had to realize that the guilt was coming from saten, not the lord. I truly don’t know how I got past it. Gods grace, most likely. Without my mom or the lord, I don’t know how I would have gotten by.
|March 24, 2015 at 02:39|
I used to be addicted to it also. its not just guys who are addicted to porn. God brought me out of with his power because I was so lost and hurting and I just needed help that I cried out to God and literally the next week I was completely healed of it. I am also a Christian and don’t really know what Baptists believe but I can tell you that God forgives you no matter what. I still have a hard time telling ppl about it, but ive come to a point were I don’t care what other ppl think and there all sinners to. I don’t leave it out when I tell ppl my testimony because u never know who may be going through it and maybe you can help them. just pray that God helps you feel more conferrable about it.:)
|March 24, 2015 at 10:04|
Hi! So I am Catholic, and I don’t know exactly what Baptists believe about their confessions before their baptism. But we have confession as a sacrament and we believe that as long as we confess all of our sins to the priest, all of them will be erased and we will be free of them, and be able to start with a clean slate. Another thing I know about confession is that the priest never remembers the confession (several priests have said that), so we do not have to worry about them knowing afterwards that we did something that we don’t want people to know. The purpose of the confession is for our sins to be erased because God forgives them all. I think it is really beautiful that God will forgive all of our sins because He loves us; He forgave them a long time ago actually, when He died on the cross for us so that we could be saved from those very sins that He forgives us for. So, always know that no matter what, Jesus loves you so much. And I will be praying for you!
|March 28, 2015 at 22:03|
That guilt you feel, even after asking for forgiveness, is the work of satan. He is making you believe that God can’t ever forgive you, that Jesus’s resurrection applied to everyone but you. After hearing a sermon about how many of us are easily able to forgive and not judge other people’s sins, when it comes to our own sins, we do a 180*. I still struggle with my past addictions even today, but by taking that mentality when the guilt just feels like it is overwhelming my world, by remembering that piece of hope, it feels like a life-preserver in a sea of hopelessness. Also feel free to email me if you ever need to talk: email@example.com. May your heart be opened to the ever-sustating peace and never-ending forgiveness of the Lord.
|March 28, 2015 at 22:27|
I have found that telling God my regrets or admitting if I have an ‘oh shoot that wasn’t good’ then I usually feel better. Ask for guidance with this problem from Him.
|March 30, 2015 at 20:14|
I struggled with the same thing too! The devil so easily can lie to us about the guilt though. For so long I went around thinking the same thing! Even though God had helped me get through the addiction, I still felt so nasty and guilty and like nobody could ever know! One night though, I was having a sleepover with my closet friend. I hadn’t even told her about it, until she opened up about her problem in that area! She was the first to share, but it made me realize that my Christian friends are the best people to talk to about it. I don’t struggle with it anymore, but it is a great testimony that is great to share with your pastor. He won’t judge you, and it just shows the life that God has saved you from AND forgiven you for. Something I didn’t realize for a while after getting saved is that i don’t have to keep asking for forgiveness. When iI became a Christian, God started looking at me like he looks at His Son, Jesus. Clean and sinless, which means I am also guiltless. The devil wants us to feel guilty and ashamed of talking to people/God about it. But God already has saved you from this struggle! Jesus paid for it on the cross, and it has been forgiven already. God loves you and all of those sins have been forgotten because you repented and turned away from it. Don’t feel guilty 🙂 I know it’s hard, trust me, i’m learning the same right now! But I’ve learned that it’s kind of a blessing to be able to share it. It shows our faith in God and it shows what God’s love and forgiveness can do!! Don’t be afraid to share 🙂 There is no judgment, especially when it comes to your pastor and your church 🙂 I think It’s a great testimony. I hope this helps 🙂
|June 30, 2015 at 04:42|
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