Okay, so I was judgemental about homosexuality. I loved them, but I was really judgmental over it. Well, a few times I’ve had weird feelings of attraction to some of my girl friends. Usually it went away because I wasnt b very close to them anyways, so I never got to see them and the feelings faded. Well, I met my best friend at church. We immediately got along. I always thought she was very beautiful and sweet before we were friends, and once I got to know her; I realized it was much more. I’ve always been the type to like people only for their heart, not necessarily their appearance. So when I got to know her, I realized she was everything I wanted in a GUY. I started to feel kind of attracted to her, and shook it off. I kept telling myself I was just acknowledging how pretty she was, not crushing on her. Well, anytime she talked about guys or hung out with anyone besides me, I got extremely jealous. I thought it was just because she was my friend and I didn’t want her to get hurt by someone else. One day, I was thinking about her and I held her band. After that, I realized I had a crush on her. I couldn’t control it. Sometimes I would text her about how much she meant to me and how great she was *she thinks I’m kissing up to her* ,but it’s actually cause I like her. Anyways, it’s hard not to think of kissing her and not get jealous when she’s with anyone. Her and I got into a fight last week and I cried for 7 hours over her. She’s the only friend I have *literally* so please pray for me that I will have strength to fight off the feelings and please pray it will go away. Thanks 🙂
|June 17, 2015 at 05:39|
It’s not anything to beat yourself up over.
|June 17, 2015 at 10:52|
I’ll pray for you. It sounds like you’ve got it bad, but girl crushes do happen to a lot of girls. I have had several myself, especially in my younger teens. Hang in there and keep praying. I completely understand the getting jealous part. Try not to be too clingy. I’ve been very clingy to my own best friend in the past, and I know it makes stuff awkward.ompletely understand the getting jealous part. Your emotions will likely settle down over time (both crushes and girl crushes usually get easier to deal with as you get older). I’ll be praying for you. You can get through this. <3
|June 18, 2015 at 09:27|
Hey babe, that sounds tough. I don’t know that simply “feeling” attracted to the same sex is a sin, because we can’t always control our feelings. I think it’s more along the lines of temptation.
We *can* control what we think about. And what we think about often leads to what we feel.
I’d say one of the worst things you could do is freak out about this and struggle struggle struggle to not “feel”.
You need to rest in God’s love, grace and forgiveness for you in order to overcome this. You are the righteousness of God in Christ. Even when you sin.
*Gasp* What?! How?! Remember God sees you as righteous NOT because of your actions, but SOLELY based on the fact that you have accepted Jesus Christ (assuming you have, of course 🙂 ) Jesus’s blood continually cleanses you. It’s ALL about what Jesus accomplished on the cross. Start seeing yourself as God sees you: With power, love, a sound mind (2 Timothy 1:7)
Ask God to give you a Christ-like, sisterly love for your friend. And honestly, I wouldn’t worry about this. For one thing, fear (or worry/anxiety) is never from Jesus. (Again, 2 Timothy 1:7) Also, feelings can simply be very fickle. Don’t identifying as homosexual simply because your emotions aren’t acting right. That’s not who you are.
According to Ephesians, you are powerful. Inside of you is the same power that raised Christ from the dead (1:19-20)
Start thanking Jesus that you are righteous, even when wild thoughts or fickle feelings rise up. Read your Bible to discover your inheritance from God and your new character from accepting Christ.
Above all, remember Jesus’ overwhelming love and grace for you, even when you sin.
|June 18, 2015 at 09:52|
Thank you all so much for your advice! 🙂 I really appreciate it. I really needed advice from someone because I can’t really tell my parents, so thank you all!
|June 21, 2015 at 16:30|
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