Hi. I’m a 17 year old girl, and I am going to be entering my senior year of high school in the fall.
I’m not sure when it began, but I feel emotionally dead. I’ve lost my fire for God, and I can’t feel anything for my family, friends, pets, children, or even my guy. I never feel happy anymore, I just feel numb. I don’t know what’s going on and I want to be back to my old self. Maybe if my showed you a piece of my life, it might help you with trying to figure out what’s wrong with me.
As of right now, I have a group of friends that unconditionally love me and the sweetest guy waiting for me. Okay, so let me talk about “my man.”
|May 27, 2015 at 10:15|
Hearing from what you are experiencing reminded me of something I was thinking about myself not so long ago. Many times my emotions and my internal well being has been affected and dictated by how my external life was– say the weather, my busy homework schedule and other things that rise and fall on the outside. I know now that I myself need the joy of the Lord.
Even when times are adverse, as long as you trust in God and have peace knowing He has it all in His care, you’ll have joy. Don’t let your family’s negativity get to you, but always be joyful. Even then, your joy could actually spread to them rather than their negativity coming to you, especially when they know it is coming from you patient
“For God so love the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life.”– John 3:16
I’ll be praying for you, fixmyeyes!
|May 28, 2015 at 17:15|
Sounds like depression, something I know all too well. Are you having suicidal thoughts or are afraid that you may actually hurt someone you care about? i understand you fear that your rapid drop in mood signals that you are turning into your racist and hateful parents. I want you to realize that that is NOT TRUE. It sounds like you are trying to fight against it, which is marvelous and shows that you still do have some amount of enrgy and haven’t given up yet. You still have a glimmer of hope amidst your depression. Hold on to that vision of your future. Pray to God to lift you through. I would suggest that you see a counselor or therapist to help you talk through your issues and see if the root cause of your depression is more psychological or neurological. Mine is more chemically based as my brain dysfunctions fairly frequently and has low levels of dopamine and can’t process seratonin, so I take medications to help with that. though, considering your family is the kind of “Christians” they are, I am not sure that they would be willing to take you to get that medical help. The choice is up to you whether to seek professional help or not, but please keep praying, keep the love of Jesus in your heart and know that the light and love of the Holy Spirit is most powerful in the most desolate of places and the most chaotic of storms. Even if you don’t feel that (AWESOME POWERFUL SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCE) often the places God breaks us become the most beautiful and God’s best work moves at a steady, slow and painful pace. And if you need to talk, you can call on me 🙂
|May 30, 2015 at 00:08|
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