I’ve been thinking so hard for the past few months and I find myself losing my love of God and of Jesus and of church and the Bible… I honestly feel like I’m becoming an atheist because I just don’t see the point in being a Christian right now, and I’m wondering why I should believe in a God who lets such horrible things happen to people and doesn’t do anything. I know it’s all about faith but I honestly have nearly lost mine, why should I have faith to get nothing in return? I don’t want you to pray for me or for my soul because that doesn’t mean anything to me right now. Honestly at the point I am right now I’d so much rather burn in hell and live life how I want to here and now, with people who are also going to hell that I know and love, than be stuck where I am now, just to get into heaven later on. I know that sounds awful but I’m really stuck and I don’t know what to do. I’ve seen so many Christians be horrible to people and so many atheists be so good and have perfect morals without God, without Jesus, without faith, that I’ve lost the point of it all. And to even think of going on a mission trip or teaching others about Christianity makes me feel sick. Advice? I really don’t want to offend anyone this is just how I’m feeling now and if you can help me I’d love to hear your thoughts because I’m kind of freaking out.
|April 14, 2015 at 18:51|
Psalm 27:13-14: “I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.”
I’m not gonna pretend that I have the answers, or even the right thing to say. This is rough, I’ve been in a stage of doubt before, too. I hope this verse helps you as much as it did me.
|April 14, 2015 at 22:32|
Wow, that must be really tough for you. I have before have been having doubts about Jesus and God at some stage of my life. Things were becoming hard in my own life and I was wondering why is it so hard, Jesus? Bu anyway…
Let me help you to clear up some answers for you:) You said that you honestly feel like you are becoming an atheist because you just don’t see the point in being a Christian right now, and why you should believe in a God who lets such horrible things happen to people and doesn’t do anything. Now I don’t know what is going in your life or anything but evil things happen because of human sin( evil things people do). People make the deliberate choice to love Jesus or to reject him. When we fail to do his commandment, we cause harm and grief to other and to ourselves ( which is sin). God is a god of love and he hates sins. But God allows sin to happen because he uses the consequences of sin for our own good- for us to learn something. Constantly in the bible, great bible people went through great persecution and hardship and God made it happen. For example, Josepth from the Old Testament was sold as slave from his own brothers and was placed in prison for a crime he did not commit for many, many years. But once he was taken out of jail, Joseph became second to the pharoah of Egypt( a high position) and it t was through God’s perfect timing and purpose. Although it seemed terrible at that time, God always has your best interests at heart because he created you. God loves you and wants the best of you. Try to realise that God will use the hard things in your life for the good- you may not see it now but you will in the future. Your character will be stronger, you will be wiser and good things will happen. If not here on earth, then in heaven:)
You also said that it’s all about faith but you think honestly that you have nearly lost yours. Let me tell you- faith never goes away once you have it. Faith only appears less because either because you focus on other things going on with your life, or the evil one, Satan tries to convince you or putting doubts into your head that Jesus does not exist. To combat this, don’t beleive Satan’s lies. Try to spend time with Jesus alone, praying. maybe you need to spend time with him again?
You also have said why should I have faith to get nothing in return and that you would rather burn in hell with people you love. That is interesting. Check out Matthew 5- the Beatitudes. Jesus states that blessed/ happy are those, who are persecuted. Living a Christian life does not guarentee happiness, riches or fame. A Christian life is about pain, suffering, trials, temptations, and persecution from others. Although God does give blessings, we should not expect to receive rewards on earth, but in heaven! If you chose to follow the world, you may satisfy you temporarily but remember your true home is in heaven! Are you sure you wish to die spiritually and be burned forever! I really don’t think so! About your loved ones, I am pretty sure you don’t want them to be there::)
You also said that you seen so many Christians be horrible to people and so many atheists be so good and have perfect morals without God. The fact is, some Christians are mean because they are hypocrites. They pretend to have faith in God but they really don’t- which make them not a Christian. And some Christians are still stuck in the wordly values- still being mean to others because of sin and refusing to follow God’s word! About athiests having good morals- this means nothing to God! All Jesus cares about is whether you have faith in him or not. Athiests may be kind and have good morals but the fact is that they still reject God. They refuse to believe that Jesus exists, that he died for thier sins. When they see God, all God would care is whether you believe in him or not. The fact is you can’t get close to God by doing good works, because no matter how many good works you would have, you will still have that sinful nature! But those that believe in Jesus, theirs sins will be erased through their belief in Jesus. Even though their lives do not match up perfectly at first, God will transform them from the inside and change them to be the person that he wants them to be! About going on missions, who said that you have to? God chooses those who he wishes to go in missions and some he does not want. God obviously has a different purpose lined up for you in your life. Talking to others about jesus is a matter that should be between God and yourself. When God wants you to spread the word of God, you will know:)
I am sorry if this sounds a bit lecture-like but I just really hope that my advice above would just help you with your doubts:) For more advice, just spend time witth the lord again and seek him:) Also, try to find things in your life that God has blessed you with and just trust in God and wait for his timing and love:) Just remember, it is your choice whether to follow God or not. You may choose your own way but you will only gain temporal crowns and die once and die again spirtually. Or you could live a hard life on earth and have no crowns( Jesus was not rich, or sucessful – he died on the cross for God:0_, but have eternal rewards forever:) Anyway, I hope this helps:) I wish you a good day:)
|April 15, 2015 at 03:28|
I highly recommend reading “Mere Christianity” by C. S. Lewis, it looks at religion and just basic morals from a very logical stand point. C. S. Lewis was an Atheist before he converted to Christianity, so he has a good stand point to start from, because he of course knew how he though when he was an atheist. That book helped me so much and it is definitely worth your time.
God gave us free will, which has lead to a lot of suffering, but just as we can not choose wrong and hate without free will, we also cannot love truly without free will.
|April 15, 2015 at 17:47|
Thank you everyone, especially katrinalove for writing such a detailed response. I’m sorry it sounds so awful but I’m just stuck in the beyond of it all. Everything seems to do with Jesus and God and loving them and I understand that and I’ve felt that, but i keep trying to look beyond everything being a Christian has taught me, because i don’t want to die and realize that nothing happens and have my whole life be devoted to something meaning less… Now I’m also worried that I’m being blasphemous and I will never be forgiven so what’s the point at all know…I think i just need some time to figure everything out. Your thoughts and responses have helped me a lot so thank you <3 Please respond if you want to say more. I love everyone on PI.
|April 15, 2015 at 20:34|
In my opinion (as an atheist), any god worth any praise and worship wouldn’t smite you for questioning these things. That said, if you really want to get into questioning it, you should consider all religions (not just Christianity), and consider what you believe is really true, rather than trying to convince yourself of something else simply out of fear.
|April 16, 2015 at 00:22|
Do not worry about being blasphemous. Jesus Christ constantly says that he like authentic worship. He wants honesty from everyone and actually Jesus dislikes when people just follow rituals such as reading the Bible or going to church and pretend to worship him. I agree with Rainbow Uni- you must decide for yourself whether it is true. Do not do out of fear- do it because you have true faith and love for Jesus. Don’t worry about God not forgiving you- God will always forgive you for everything!
One thing I do disagree with RainbowUni is the Christianity is often described as a religion. Christianity is not a religion- it is a relationship with Jesus Christ. The thing which is so radically different about all the other religions is that there is no talk about the forgiveness of sins. They don’t talk about having that authentic personal relationship with God. In fact in all the other religions, they fail to recognise that Jesus is God. They all say that he was just a prophet, a good man to walked on the earth. Christianity is the only one that says that Jesus is God, the Messiah, who died ,who came to rescue us from all our sins so that through him we will be saved. I have a question for you? Are you a born again Christian with the Holy Spirit within you, or are you just merely exploring Christianity or are you a Christian who hasn’t gave your heart to Jesus or are you a born again Christian who just has doubts? Because I think it will be easier to adapt the questions more easily if I know your general journey/ background:)
|April 16, 2015 at 18:36|
@katrinalove Maybe you and I define “religion” differently. I like to use the definitions Google gives (“the belief in and worship of a superhuman controlling power, especially a personal God or gods,” “a particular system of faith and worship,”) but if your definition is different, that’s cool too. But you’re not really correct in saying that Christianity is the only *whatever* that forgiveness from “sin” or a personal relationship with its deity—lots of religions do that. Aside from Abrahamic religions (Judaism, Christianity, Islam, etc.), which are all similar in that they offer the same relationship and salvation from sin, theistic Hinduism (in traditions such as Vaishnavism and Shaivism) also offers a personal relationship with a god, as well as salvation through Moksha. This is only out of the 5 major world religions (the fifth being Buddhism, which can range from theistic, with belief in a personal relationship with a personal god, to theistic with belief in an impersonal god, to atheistic, depending on who you ask), so I’m sure you could find more religions that fit into this same shape of a relationship with god and salvation if you looked for them.
|April 16, 2015 at 21:10|
@rainbowuni i agree that those religions offer salvation but do they offer free salvation, salvation given not for good works or anything like that. Hinduism gives salvation if you are a good hindu who worships their Gods and such but Christianity is absolutely different. Jesus died for our sins on the cross and gave us as a gift and by faith we are saved. Then if you are truly reborn you will start a personal relationship with Christ. The holy spirit will guide you alongside with the bible and help and support from other christians at church.(Worship will also help you grow closer to God) You will grow in your faith by going through tribulations, temptations, pain, suffering, and trails (all part of life) but through all this God will hold your hand. That is what Christianity is all about. I told you the full story of the faith journey which in the end you will meet Jesus in heaven and forever be in his glory….
@Sam many people have doubts and I do as well. One time a group from SES (Southern Evangelical Seminary) came to my church and showed me what apologetics is, defence of christianity. They gave reasons on how science backs up christianity, morality and the moral argument (1. If God does not exist, objective moral values do not exist.
2. Objective moral values do exist.
3. Therefore, God exists.
Read more: http://www.reasonablefaith.org/the-moral-argument-for-god#ixzz3YjOx2YzE) the cosmological argument (1. Whatever begins to exist has a cause.
2. The universe began to exist.
3. Therefore, the universe has a cause.
Read more: http://www.reasonablefaith.org/in-defense-of-the-kalam-cosmological-argument#ixzz3YjPnV1Ow) and the defense of the bible and it’s being historically accurate. There are so many people that prove that Christianity is true on an intellectual level. Ravi Zacharias, William Lane Craig, Gary Habermas, Norman Geisler, and J. Warner Wallace. All of these people have helped me grow stronger in my faith and evangelize to others the truth
About your feeling that christianity is meaningless I suggest you listen to Ravi Zacharias on the meaning of life link (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3yW87hNmfxo) Ravi Zacharias is an awesome speaker on this topic and the problem of pain/suffering which you have also asked about. I Suggest you listen to Ravi Zacharias on that as well or if you really want to go in depth read C.S. Lewis’s The Problem of Pain. It totally clears things up on that subject
|April 29, 2015 at 17:30|
The only sin that is unforgivable or blasphemy against the holy spirit is being an atheist because you decide you don’t want to beleive in God anymore so you can’t of something (sin) you think you don’t have.
|April 29, 2015 at 17:30|
Just to offer some counter-arguments…
Objective Morality: http://wiki.ironchariots.org/index.php?title=Moral_argument
Cosmological Argument: http://wiki.ironchariots.org/index.php?title=Cosmological_argument
Atheists just want to sin: http://wiki.ironchariots.org/index.php?title=You_just_want_to_sin
Belief is a choice: http://wiki.ironchariots.org/index.php?title=Religious_belief_is_not_a_choice
For me, I can’t choose what I believe–I’m either convinced, or I’m not. I unfortunately lack the ability to block out certain pieces of information in order to convince myself some things that might be more appealing is actually true. So if your (“good-guy”) god wants to damn me to Hell for eternity because of that, I don’t really want to spend an eternity with him anyway…
|May 19, 2015 at 08:23|
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