The last few years have been a whirlwind for me, I have lost my grandfather who I loved dearly, My grandmother moved in with us, My little brother was born, I found Christ, I moved to a new town. Among so many other things. I don’t think there has been an era of my life with so much change. And with change comes responsibility. So much pressure has been put on me lately because 1) I’m the oldest child and 2) because i’m a teenager now that suddenly makes me able to do things I couldn’t before. These ideas scare me out of my mind. In a few days I’ll be going into my last year of middle school, and then after that i’ll be going to high school. And as of right now I have no idea where i’m going to go. I have to take care of my little brother because he has speech problems and I have to work with him once in a while. My mother is teaching me how to cook, and I have to care for my grandmother whose asthma is getting worse by the day, and what I really don’t like is that everyone in my school feels like it’s perfectly normal to talk about sex like it’s nothing. I’m scared about what the future will bring and really I just want everything to stay the same. I just want to stay the girl who likes Victorian history, sewing, pretty things, books and especially god. I don’t want any of my new responsibilities getting me blind sighted of what I really am. How can I stay true to myself even with all this new stuff swirling around my life? And especially how can I stay pure when my environment at school is so bad?
|September 5, 2015 at 10:51|
“And especially how can I stay pure when my environment at school is so bad?”
|September 5, 2015 at 12:48|
First off, I’m sorry you have some of the responsibilities that you have. You should not have to be taking care of your brother or grandmother to the extent that you do, however, I know that sometimes early responsibility is unavoidable.
|September 5, 2015 at 13:05|
Wow, it sounds like you’re going through a really stressful time. But I hope that I can help a little.
“I don’t want to buy all this stupid boring adult stuff and become boring adults.”
Point is, even as you grow older… you’ll still be you. You’ll have more responsibilites, but that doesn’t mean you can’t have fun. It doesn’t mean you’ll stop being yourself. If you want to still be the girl you are now, then there is absolutely nothing stopping you from it. Yes, learn to handle your responsibilites, but don’t feel like you can’t chase your passions as well. Balance is key.
You’re going to be okay, I promise ♥
|September 6, 2015 at 13:09|
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