It’s ok to not have an uber-inspiring testimony 🙂 I think sometimes we feel like we need to know all the answers and be perfect, but you don’t.
I’m sorry you’re lonely, I know how that feels. I’m not sure if this will make you feel any better, but I went through an awful phase where I had no friends, and I felt like I literally had no one to talk to. The good news is, phases pass! 😉 In the past few year or so I’ve really been able to re-connect with old friends as well as making new ones, and I found out that actually a lot of people go through phases of having no friends (or at least no close friends.)
So you’re not alone, there’s nothing wrong with you, this too shall pass ;).
And in the mean time, yes, you have us! We are always here for you, and you can talk to us about anything! <3