I’ve spent the last two summers in africa with my church wiring in an orphanage and I absolutely love it I plan on going back next summer but that is part of the problem my that hurts thinking about africa and I feel like in staying to get depressed. I don’t take that term lightly I’ve had many friends who are actually depressed and it sucks. I have 1 good friend and she doesn’t go to school with me so that is hard. I have Akzo started to masterbate and I don’t know what to do. I’ve never told anyone that abs I feel guilty doing it. I feel so lost and alone and confused. Please help.