My name’s Eliza, and I am from a missionary family. I’ve been meaning to share my testimony for awhile but I was not sure what words to use and how to speak (type). I asked Jesus for words and here I am. I hope it encourages someone. 🙂
The hardest thing I’ve ever been through was losing my father. I do not want to go into much detail, but… He backslid a lot and developed a drinking problem and didn’t want anything to do with God or our family anymore. Both that and not really having a father figure for most of my life has been extremely difficult for me. Because of that, I felt lonely and abandoned and not only started having MAJOR self esteem issues, I also started cutting and even got an eating disorder. I would not wish that upon anyone. It took me years to finally hear Jesus knocking on the door of my heart, gently telling me to accept the love of my Heavenly Father. Struggling so much, I tried to fill the void in my heart that my father left with wrong things. When I truly accepted God back into my life and heart, I discovered His amazing fatherly love that started to heal my wounds. That was incredible! If any one of you is struggling with not having a father (or having a father that doesn’t care), please know that God’s got your back. You are His precious little girl. He adores you and wants to fill the emptiness in your heart with His love so badly.
Despite the difficulties we faced, my family still aimed to keep serving God and not abandon His call on our life. When we traveled to a distant land in Russia to plant a new church and make disciples, it was both an amazing and heart-wrenching experience. We experienced incredible God’s provision, for one thing! There’s nothing like seeing Him come through with finances you need, and knowing that what you are doing is truly Him building HIS Kingdom and that with Him, there will always be enough. We also had to deal with persecution. One time, the house where we lived was nearly broken into late at night by a gang. We heard shouting, cursing, threats, and name calling. They were also throwing large stones into our windows. That was extremely scary! We then started to pray to Jesus fervently to protect us. It didn’t happen right away, but in a few minutes we heard a gentle, soft voice telling these guys to back off. Surprisingly, they obeyed and left, never to return again. Then comes the hardest part of the story… In Russia (and that’s where my family serves) it is VERY hard to find a solid, healthy church. Many are just money-oriented, not like in the United States, but much worse; many are legalistic; still others are influenced by cults that are prevalent here. Unfortunate for us, the church with which we connected at first was ALL but healthy. I had to deal with a lot of bullying and abuse here… I am not saying that everyone in that church was bad, BUT the elite, so to speak (mostly their pastors’ and ministers’ kids) were just horrible to me. They are all rich (because their parents take money from the churches’ needs), extremely beautiful in world’s strandards, have all the trendy clothes and electronics. I on the other hand, was always raised believing that what matters most is my heart and internal beauty, and always lived a life of simplicity for the sake of the Gospel (that means we do not spend much on ourselves at all). Well these kids bullied me all the time for my looks. They would call me ugly, fat and all other ugly things. I used to have weight problems back then because of severe medical problems. But that does not give them the right to verbally abuse me. I felt so terrible and harbored such anger and hate in my heart that it was hard to trust God and talk to Him. Long story short, my family stepped away from that church, but they still left us with wounds they’ll never understand. It took us (meaning my sister and I) awhile to start to recuperate. After months, we are finally able to see these people through the eyes of the Lord. There is no more anger or bitterness! Instead, we see them as people who have wandered away and are hurting deep inside. We pray for them so that they would also know what it’s like to REALLY know Jesus and have His love in their hearts.
Right now we are expecting to go into misison field again, this time to a country in South Pacific with our organization! That is a very exciting time for us, as we once again rely on God completely to provide and make it possible for HIS glory. Not for ourselves, but for Him! I have anxiety issues regarding trusting God, but through it all, He taught me to step out into the unknown with bold faith that He will never leave me hanging. He told us He WOULD provide and that is why we are not afraid or ashamed.
I would LOVE to hear from you guys 🙂 God bless you. I’m always here if you need someone to talk AND I also take prayer requests 24/7 <3
|April 20, 2016 at 23:44|
Please delete this topic 🙂 I was pretty hurt when no one read this, even though all of the other testimonies are read and commented on. I thought I was going to inspire and encourage someone but apparently not. Sorry for your time then 🙂
|June 12, 2016 at 00:01|
I think this is really cool! I want to be a missionary when I’m older, so this was really helpful! May God help you on your travels. Good luck and thank you! 🙂
|August 2, 2016 at 14:46|
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