I feel like the past few months have been really difficult and discouraging, and I’m starting to wonder when it will end. I had a few rough gymnastics meets, which doesn’t bother me too much, but my coach never seems to pay attention to me no matter what I do, so that makes me sad. I work super hard, but it seems like I’m always doing something wrong. I’m not one of the favorites. My dad has also been looking for a new job for over a year, and we finally thought this was the one. Everything for it lined up perfectly. Today we found out that they are hiring someone else. This is at least the third time we’ve gotten close only to have this happen. That was especially hard, because everyone was really excited about the town and everything. Now we are still here, and it’s really lonely. We are having to switch churches again because our current church is really small and there are hardly any people my sister and I’s age, and I want to make some Christian friends. We have been dumped by close friends. It feels like everyone is always grouchy and fighting in our family. I think the hardest thing is hearing about all the great things God does for people and wondering why they don’t happen to you. Sometimes I feel like God is leaving us alone. I don’t know. Oh, and my dad scared me the other day by saying that the next thing could be that my Grandma dies. I can’t imagine life without her. Sometimes I feel that she’s the only one besides my mom that loves me unconditionally and is always their for me. I don’t know if I could handle losing her. But with all the discouragement I am pretty much waiting for the next bad thing to happen. I’ve tried being positive, but then I get worried or sad again.
|May 6, 2015 at 20:05|
If I were you, I would do gymnastics because you enjoy it, not to please your coach. If you work hard, and you make progress, who is he to put you down?
|July 8, 2015 at 11:46|
Thank you, cucumbersandwitch, for your kind response. I am doing better now. I do love gymnastics and I’m finally getting my skills down better. My family is doing ok, and my dad is most likely going to be able to get a new job this month. Thank you again. Things are finally starting to look up. 🙂
|July 9, 2015 at 10:14|
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