This summer I’m set to go on a 9 week missions trip to Honduras through my university and it is really really expensive ($3,495). This is my first trip ever, and I am awful at fundraising. Ever since the beginning of the trip the money has been a struggle. First it was to get the down payment, then to get a passport, and now to raise everything else. I am not having luck at all here! No one that I thought would donate is donating, including my family. I’m currently at $517.29…$25.29 of which came from me giving $3 here and $3 there. I have to be honest: it is really embarrassing because everyone else on the trip is like “I’m only missing 1/3 of the money!” and I am not even half way..
I am just feeling really confused and frustrated because I’ve been praying and praying for provision because I’m basically helpless! It’s impossible for me to work right now and I’ve reached out to people through letters and social media. I feel like a sitting duck and I’m really afraid that I won’t be able to go and serve on this trip. However, still nothing is coming in. I know God is faithful and HE CAN do it, but I am struggling to believe that he will do it for me. I struggle to give him control and all of my trust because nothing is moving. Sometimes I try to take it into my own hands..I have considered even taking out a loan (which is a bad idea) because I feel desperate. Doesn’t He know there are deadlines and people I am held accountable to?? I know he knows…but why hasn’t anything happened yet?
I know it’s not my place to question God and his ways but I simply can’t help it. Every time I think about this missions trip I start to panic and can’t breathe. All because of the money. I don’t know what to do. I keep feeling like I’m doing something WRONG, like I don’t have enough faith or something, as though there was a secret code to this. And every time I sin or mess up I feel guilty and worry that God won’t help me because I’m a bad sinner who clearly shouldn’t be going on a missions trip..my mind feels like a war zone and I don’t know what to do! Please help!
Can anyone relate?? Thanks in advance!
Oh, and if you could pray for me, I would be so grateful! I really need a miracle!
|March 7, 2016 at 22:27|
I can totally relate to you on this. I’ve been a missionary since college too and money has always been the hardest thing for me. It’s really hard for me to ask for donations, but you should still ask because in the Word of God it says Ask and you shall receive. Also you should not worry that people will say mean things to you because it is God whom you are serving and you know in your heart you are not raising funds for yourself, but to build His Kingdom. Keep confident about it and pray. I will also pray for you today. I’d love to hear how it goes.
|March 24, 2016 at 16:12|
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