A Message From PI Founder, Nicole:

I want to remind you that God created you for a huge purpose, and He WILL use you to build His kingdom! You are meant to shine!

How to know God.

 

*Sigh*

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nicole77

Hey PI girls! ^_^)/

My name is Nicole. I moved to the US 3 years ago & recently, and by recently I mean 8 months ago, moved to another State. My family & I started going to this *amazing* American church. There at the worship group there’s this one guy <3. If I was to start from the beginning, I went through two very painful heartbreaks. This lead me to decide to do something I should have done way before. For the sake of information, both relationships were in my mind God centered & with the goal of marriage. Though in both that apparently wasn't what those guys had in mind. Although I guess great guys, they just clearly weren't the man God has for me. See sadly & with shame I can see now, they both lead me astray. & if to be honest, they filled my heart with sin & lust. God was simply protecting my virginity & conserving me pure when the painful heartbreaks happened because he knows my heart but also knew theirs & their minds. From an exterior point of view I could be judge as a girl who was only hooking up with the guys. But see, I can assure you that was so not the case. In my ignorance & poor self-esteem that was a way to me to let them know "I loved them." Which now to be honest with myself I didn't & as I said before those relationships were only spiritually making me sick, filling my heart with lust & sin as it was leading me far from God. I can see now that was Jesus way of protecting me for the one. I couldn't be happier to still have dreams & memories to be filled, my virginity & the title of my fist boyfriend to the one Jesus has for me. So repent, restored my heart, & re-established my purity promise now stronger with God. In between tears had a heart to heart with the only one that knows my heart, Jesus. That night I described him what I wanted on a guy physically, mentally & spiritually. Time passed, & on my ACT test day, that morning God spoke to my heart & remembered me something He told me long ago but I stupidly ignored, then in my mind came this thought "That guy, he will be there today at your room." Surprise, that that following Sunday I see singing on the worship team {I wanted him to be a worshiper in spirit & truth God} this handsome young man {I want him to be southern, blond & blue eyes, not fat nor skinny with a beautiful smile} that the day before, I saw entering in my test room with sweat pants and sneakers. It's been 8 month & I have never spoke to him nor said hi more that twice. Every day I feel like this feeling in my heart is leaving the crush dream as it is walking closer & closer towards the falling in love reality. Each Sunday & Wednesday more things I like deeper I fall. But how to know if this is "he". How to know when he doesn't even looks at me. I mean, he could not show less interest. Moreover I'm pretty sure he likes someone else. He is so smart. Like literally Doctor to be presidential scholarship super smart. He is just perfect, really. I am just . . Not. I need help. I need to know how to wait & not loose hope. I need an honest girl to girl advice that goes beyond what I'm already doing, praying & waiting. How not to be heartbroken if all this beautiful coincidences have only been a product of my beautiful and crazy imagination.

Love,
Nicole <3

January 12, 2015 at 17:52
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Flute2013

I think that you should talk to a good Christain friend. I know the feeling believe me! Then if you really believe that he’s the one, get to know him. And always keep pursuing Vod first because he only wants the best for you and loves you so much!
Talk to a friend and stay close to God.

January 15, 2015 at 16:58
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Flute2013

*God.
Not Vod. Typing issues.

January 15, 2015 at 16:59
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