Okay, so a while ago, before I learned better, a guy friend of mine who I’ve known four-five-ish years told me he likes me and well, I’ve liked him for about three years so I was like “It’s about dang time.” Well, this was a month ago or so. Apparently he’s also liked me for a while but he is a few years older (not like a lot, but a few) and he dated a different Christian girl for a couple months before she was kinda in the same boat as me and it’s like, I feel bad and I kinda want to let him down gently but at the same time, I’m a very black and white/ socially awkward person (seriously, I don’t even know how I got a boyfriend in the place it’s so bad) so I don’t know where the line between too easy and he doesn’t get the message and dang that was harsh is. I think I’ll take a while away from him to help with temptation. I also told him that I was feeling uneasy and I needed time to think about our progressions and pray about what I need to do, and I’ve done that. A lot. I don’t know, he was out of my life for a quite a while (lost contact, he moved to a different country. It happens.) so I’m not wondering if I shouldn’t even completely call it off, but he’s been one of my most trusted confidants for so many years (he was the first person I told about the growing depression I had if that clarifies the extent of this) and I don’t AT ALL WANT to completely push him out but at the same time, I don’t know anything. I’ve prayed and prayed and prayed and I’ve read my bible and I know for sure that I have to call it off, but I don’t know the extent yet. I have several Christians in my life now that I can confide in and it’s weird because four of them are some of the most mature spiritually girls I know and I met them through tumblr of all places (and I do not use that loosely, trust me on this. They’re good. I’ve done a lot of subtle-snooping. [What can I say? I’m a Slytherin.]) I feel like this is all just going in a downward spiral and I have been trying and begging to be shown the way out and I don’t know. Please help.
|January 28, 2015 at 20:18|
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