Okay so this is going to be a long crazy mess of an explanation. So basically I’m at the college I’m at right now and it’s in my hometown and I live at home. I tried living on campus and I honestly felt guilty that I was living there when I lived two minutes away at home. I was already anticipating problems with my roommate because we just had a lot of belief differences but I was honestly too nice and too passive about the situation. But now I’m home and it’s almost been a full school year and I don’t like the school at all. The classes, the people, everything. I don’t feel like I belong and I honestly feel guilty for staying on campus longer than my classes last and maybe lunch because I have to go home. I fought a lot with my parents this time last year about going to this school because I had my heart set on going to one 3 hours away that was still in state. It was a private christian college that I actually knew people at. They told me to suck it up because they had their mind set on me going to this school I’m at now. Now I’m partially happy I was here this past fall because I was able to be there in an instant right when my grandmother got sick and passed in September. But I know that now I’m not growing as a person and my faith is taking a hit as well. The only reason I’ve been growing at all is because I’ve been going to a different church than the one I’ve been attending. But again that’s change. I’ve considered just changing my major because the people in my major are a huge part of it (I’m an English major) and I know the further I get in my degree I’ll be encountering the same type of or the same people. I just can’t do that to myself. I’m miserable. I’m only a freshman and will be a sophomore in the fall so I won’t be too too behind socially or too ahead in my major. I’ve talked to my parents but they still aren’t sure what to think. I just want to be able to grow and become more independent.
|March 18, 2015 at 07:16|
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