Let me start with this, I went to church off and on with my mom (my brothers and dad stopped going a long time ago) and stopped a year or 2 ago. I can drive, but have not gone in over 11 months. I just don’t feel God, no matter what I do. I have been reading this Christian book series, called the Christy Miller series. It has really opened my eyes. But I still don’t feel like God is in my heart. I have “accepted him in” multiple times before, but I don’t think I truly meant it. I’m scared to do it again for fear that nothing will change. Currently life has gotten rough. My one friend I hagn out with, we just are in a rough spot. My friend at school, does a lot of drugs and alcoholic stuff. So currently no good friends. I just don’t know where God is. Where I stand with him? I just don’t know anything……………..
|October 11, 2015 at 23:32|
Pianist 4 Christ
When Jesus walked on the water and asked Peter to come, Peter doubted. He was afraid of stepping out on the waves. Now I’m not experiencing your situation, but this is what it sounds like. I can’t tell you where God is, but I can tell you where He is not. He is not in your comfort zone. You won’t be able to find that true dedication to Christ that your heart is seeking while just waiting for Him to come to you. You have to step onto the waves and come unto Christ. Now, being an introvert, I know this isn’t always easy. Going back to church after being gone for so long might sound really hard, but if your church is truly supportive, they don’t care. They won’t judge you for not coming, but will enjoy having you there when you are. I suggest that you try making a goal and working toward it. If your goal is going to church once, and church isn’t what you expected, then find a new goal. Somewhere else I have found God is in service. Try finding a volunteer organization. You’d be surprised how close you grow to Jesus through serving others! God bless you!
|October 12, 2015 at 18:10|
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