Patience has never been my strongest suit…in fact, I’m working on it every day! However, I made a commitment to myself and God that I wouldn’t date. I would court. And when I court, it will be a man who I’ve gotten to know and is a man who could be my potential husband.
Does that mean that I don’t notice guys around me? That I don’t wonder where my Mr. Right is? That I don’t wonder when God will introduce us? Of course not! I wonder all the time, and I do notice guys. It’s hard to keep myself focused on my commitment. I would really like to have a boyfriend. It would be fun, but I know that God has already chosen the best man for my future. He’s out there somewhere…
But waiting is hard! And as I said, patience is not something I come by naturally (I doubt there are many people out there who do!).
So I decided to add something to my commitment. I decided that not only was I going to wait for the right man, I was going to love him…now! I was going to keep a special place in my heart especially reserved for him, and I wasn’t going to let it get dusty and forgotten. Every day, I pray for him, wherever he is. I pray that God will protect him, and let him know that I am waiting for him.
But I also do something else. Something that some people might think is silly, but I find that it is really helping me!
I bought a journal, and every night I write my beloved-to-be a letter. I tell him everything! I tell him about my day, what I did and saw. I tell him how I am growing spiritually, and that I am waiting for him…even though it is really hard sometimes! I am honest with him. I imagine that one day, when he and I are married, I’ll let him read these letters. They are to him, after all!
You might be thinking, “How can you write a letter to someone you don’t even know?”
I wondered that too, when I first started writing him letters. Of course, I don’t know certain things about him, like what he looks like, what his sense of humor is, what movies he likes, what books, what hobbies…
But I do know a few things that he will be if he is the man God intended for me. He’ll be honest and kind. He’ll have resolve for what he believes in. He’ll be a man of prayer. He’ll have love for his family. And most importantly, he’ll be a man of God, dedicated to his faith in the Father.
You see, I may not know specific little details, but I do know a lot of important things about him. The man I am writing to may not have a face yet, but I’ll see it someday, when God introduces us.
And until then, I’ll write him a letter every day, striving to become a young woman that such a young man will look for…
Written by PI girl Jayne
