Reply To: When you just need to say it
I have three…:) as the topic says I don’t really need advice but I would love to know if anyone has gone through something similar to any of them. And if you have Bible verses or something that has helped that would be great:)
1. I have had back and neck pain for about 2 years now. It is steadily getting worse and with the new cool year it has gotten much worse and more frequent pain. I am a pianist and sitting up straight is nearly impossible even when wearing my back brace. I don’t question God’s plan but I do often wonder why. I have been working this week on being thankful in all circumstances (1 Thess. 5:18) and not worrying (Philippians 4:6-7) but I am not able to think of any way to be thankful in this. And I can’t do anything about it so it requires trust in God alone, not even the doctor is helping anymore. I guess I just need to get out in a safe place that I am confused. I thought my faith was strong, and I thought I trusted God but this has really been bothering me and making me cry a lot and I really hear God saying “Do you love me more than anything?” I thought I knew the answer was yes, but I didn’t know it could be so hard to keep it as a yes.
2. I have a close guy friend who just moved off to college (I am just a high school sophomore). I miss him a lot but I don’t think he has a clue. I have known him through piano for a few years (not closely) but as of August ’12 I started seeing him biweekly through piano and him coming to. My youth group for Bible Drill. (He goes to another church). He is honestly the strongest Christian teen I know and I look up to him so much. I put too much stability in him while he was here though. We talked often and had fun together but I got more attached than he did. I haven’t seen him in 3 months now and don’t know when I’ll see him again. Possibly Christmas but I will “see” him, not really get to talk. We weren’t as close as I wanted, but I look up to him so much and enjoy being with him so much, I don’t know really. Write before he left I gave him a letter I wrote just saying I looked up to him and would miss him and all the things I remembered us doing together that I loved. It was 2 full pages and I cried writing it. It was really emotional for me, but now I regret it because he never said anything to me about it or anything. For him, he probably didn’t see it as much, I presented it like a graduation card and he was really busy after that. I only saw him one more time at a surprise party (it was for me and he came, that was sweet) but I barely got to talk to him with so many people there. The hard part is not knowing if I will get to talk to him again or anything. I miss him, a. lot.
3. I have another guy friend. I have been close to this one for almost seven years and he is my best friend’s brother. I am right in between them in age (14,15,16). (he is older by like 9 months). Anyway, I love spending time with him. When I go over there the three of us all hang out for hours and just have a genuinely good time. I like that so much. But at church he rarely talks to me. The thing is its almost like he has an on/off switch. One week we will sit together at youth group, talk some, and hang out, and the next he won’t say a word to me. He is “popular” so to speak but it bothers me that sometimes he seems to want to be friends and other times not. I want to be friends, I value our friendship, I have thought of him as a good friend for a long time, but I have no idea what he thinks. Last weekend we hung out a lot because I slept over with my best friend and we all had fun and we talked a lot. Just surface level stuff and a lot of laughing, but I miss that and I’m worried tomorrow at youth group he will “turn off” to me again and ignore me. I even emailed my friend some Spanish homework of mine today to proofread for me and she had him do it without me knowing because he is better at Spanish. He proofread it and emailed me back a list of grammar errors and even explained them to me. That was nice, and I really think a good sign but I don’t want to be let down tomorrow. I want to talk to him but I don’t want it to be awkward or anything. It’s just a weird situation.
Those may have made no sense but I just wanted to get them out:) I appreciate prayers and support and if you have anything you want to tell me about if you’ve had something similar happen or something please do!
Your Sister in Christ<3