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Marilyn

Hi  I’m Marilyn but most call me “Mimi”. I’m 14 and I’ve been overweight my whole life, when I was born the doctor was even amazed at how big I was. I’ve dealt with bullying as long as I can remember, some of my relatives would have nicknames for me like “Dough Boy” and “Gorda” (fat girl in Spanish,) and when I started going to school it got even worse.  I went through my whole life thinking my life was a movie and I was nothing but an extra. In Sixth grade I started wanting to be like my older sister, who was always the thin, tan, blonde, beautiful one. So I started to copy her makeup, which at the time was Black eyeliner, thick black mascara, dark brown eye shadow, and bright pink lip gloss. I thought that I would always be “ugly and fat” so what would some makeup hurt? The whole school year I was always sad, and depressed wondering why God had to make me the fat ugly girl nobody liked, and my friends and family thin and beautiful. I would get so frustrated when I’d get up in the morning and have nothing to wear when my sister would be able to wear whatever she wanted because it all fit and looked amazing on her. The church I went to had all these beautiful girls with glossy hair and perfect faces and bodies, I thought they were all mean and snobby, sometimes I didn’t even want to go to church because I knew they were going to make fun of me. But when I did go, I piled on the lip gloss and eyeliner, thinking it would help. The summer after sixth grade I went to camp with my church and found out I would have to share a cabin with all of them and almost didn’t go because I didn’t want them to see me without makeup or my hair when I got out of the shower (nobody outside my family knew my hair was naturally curly). After all the screaming and crying I gave up, I thought “Whatever, it’s just Christian camp. I might cry once or twice from one of the preachers talks, what’s the worst that can happen?” so I went to the camp. once I got there I was taken COMPLETELY  by surprise, the girls that I thought were just snobby bullies who only cared about looks were actually really nice! They all thought my curly hair was beautiful, that I looked way better without makeup, and even said I was pretty. That may not sound like much to some of you girls reading this, but I had never been called pretty before! At least not by girls who were that beautiful and thin. I was so busy being paranoid that they were going to judge me and make fun of me that I didn’t see who they really were, and that they were actually not like everyone else. Then it clicked, “I AM LOVED BY GOD AND NOTHING ANYONE CAN SAY WILL MAKE THAT GO AWAY. I AM A MASTERPIECE, AND SO IS EVERYONE ELSE.” Now, I’m going into high school in the fall, and I’m super nervous, and excited to see what God has in store for me. I hope you all know how much God loves you and how naturally beautiful everyone is!!

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  1. Carnation

    Posted by Carnation on October 30, 2012 at 16:17

    How could anyone call you ugly? You are so gorgeos!! Don’t ever let anyone tell you otherwise!!! Your smile is so happy and pretty I smiled myself. 🙂

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    Posted by ShaeNikole on October 6, 2012 at 06:18

    <3

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    Posted by Amber on September 24, 2012 at 18:08

    I was reading your story and was honestly shocked that people called you ugly! I looked at your picture and all I could think is that you are absolutely gorgeous! You look so exotic with your dark hair and eyes. Plus your smile is so beautiful! Girl, don’t let anybody tell you anything different than you are beautiful! Inside and out! 🙂

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    Posted by YouHadMeAt_Believe on September 22, 2012 at 17:09

    YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! 😀 I have the same problem, I’m Africa, and my mom calls me “oputu”, or big one in my language, and its awful. All my friends are beautiful, but I’m not allowed makeup ^_^ I’ve grown to love myself though 🙂

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    Posted by SonikkuMikuFan on September 22, 2012 at 10:29

    You’re really pretty! It’s really hard to find what clothes look good on me since a bunch of clothes look absolutely horrid on me but they look great on my sister. She’s naturally stick thin and I have a fuller figure so it’s definetley harder.

  6. Posted by Nicole on September 13, 2012 at 23:22

    HI Mimi! First of all let me just tell you: You are STUNNING. Your almond shaped eyes, cheeks and your smile is amazing! Don’t EVER let anyone tell you otherwise, they are just insecure and are trying to put you down to make themselves feel better. If someone says something mean to you pray for them internally, because they are not walking with God. This is Nicole who runs this site by the way! 🙂

  7. Paris

    Posted by Paris on August 30, 2012 at 21:06

    You are so pretty,and I went through the same thing you did!

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    Posted by savannahasingeorgia on August 15, 2012 at 22:08

    I love your hair! You’re very pretty! I love your story, its very inspiring! That is truly what God wants us to think! We’re all his gorgeous daughters, and everyone is beautiful, because God makes NO mistakes!