Me Without Makeup
Written by Project Inspired | August 7, 2012
Hi I’m Marilyn but most call me “Mimi”. I’m 14 and I’ve been overweight my whole life, when I was born the doctor was even amazed at how big I was. I’ve dealt with bullying as long as I can remember, some of my relatives would have nicknames for me like “Dough Boy” and “Gorda” (fat girl in Spanish,) and when I started going to school it got even worse. I went through my whole life thinking my life was a movie and I was nothing but an extra. In Sixth grade I started wanting to be like my older sister, who was always the thin, tan, blonde, beautiful one. So I started to copy her makeup, which at the time was Black eyeliner, thick black mascara, dark brown eye shadow, and bright pink lip gloss. I thought that I would always be “ugly and fat” so what would some makeup hurt? The whole school year I was always sad, and depressed wondering why God had to make me the fat ugly girl nobody liked, and my friends and family thin and beautiful. I would get so frustrated when I’d get up in the morning and have nothing to wear when my sister would be able to wear whatever she wanted because it all fit and looked amazing on her. The church I went to had all these beautiful girls with glossy hair and perfect faces and bodies, I thought they were all mean and snobby, sometimes I didn’t even want to go to church because I knew they were going to make fun of me. But when I did go, I piled on the lip gloss and eyeliner, thinking it would help. The summer after sixth grade I went to camp with my church and found out I would have to share a cabin with all of them and almost didn’t go because I didn’t want them to see me without makeup or my hair when I got out of the shower (nobody outside my family knew my hair was naturally curly). After all the screaming and crying I gave up, I thought “Whatever, it’s just Christian camp. I might cry once or twice from one of the preachers talks, what’s the worst that can happen?” so I went to the camp. once I got there I was taken COMPLETELY by surprise, the girls that I thought were just snobby bullies who only cared about looks were actually really nice! They all thought my curly hair was beautiful, that I looked way better without makeup, and even said I was pretty. That may not sound like much to some of you girls reading this, but I had never been called pretty before! At least not by girls who were that beautiful and thin. I was so busy being paranoid that they were going to judge me and make fun of me that I didn’t see who they really were, and that they were actually not like everyone else. Then it clicked, “I AM LOVED BY GOD AND NOTHING ANYONE CAN SAY WILL MAKE THAT GO AWAY. I AM A MASTERPIECE, AND SO IS EVERYONE ELSE.” Now, I’m going into high school in the fall, and I’m super nervous, and excited to see what God has in store for me. I hope you all know how much God loves you and how naturally beautiful everyone is!!