Me Without Makeup
Written by Project Inspired | August 8, 2012
I am starting college this fall. This is a picture of me when I went boating with my family and I decided not to wear makeup. I used to wear makeup all the time because I didn’t feel pretty enough to go without. I love singing, dancing, and playing with kids. I have been through a lot, but God has brought me out the other side and shown me exactly who I am and who He wants me to be. I struggled with depression, cutting, eating disorders, and anxiety for almost 5 years. Cutting was the hardest for me to stop. It became my god for a long time. I looked for my self worth in all the wrong places. I am finally starting to see how beautiful I am in Christ alone. Demi Lovato is a huge source of inspiration for me as well. I have delt with many of the same things she has and to see someone like her admit she needs help and do whatever it takes to get it really inspired me to get more help and change my life. I have a counselor I am very close to, can tell anything, and supports me in my walk with Christ. This summer I went to a place called JH Ranch in California for a father daughter week with my dad. It was amazing. I realized I’m not over what I went through and I need God’s help with healing. I started to see that I never went to God for anything and I need to do that. God should be first in everything. I used to run to friends to fix everything for me and that just hurt me more because people will always fail us. My coach really taught me a lot and I still talk to her. I go to her for advice, after I pray of course, and she supports me in my walk! God also placed a girl in my cabin that struggled like I did and we became very close. And toward the end of the week when I was really struggling, God gave me another girl to talk to who’s story is EXACTLY the same as mine! God spoke so many truths into my life through her and I have been feeling so close to Him ever since then. God has blessed me with so many amazing people in my life to show me how beautiful I am and how much He loves me. It has taken me my whole life to realize I am beautiful because God made me that way. He is so good!