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True Love Is Unconditional, by PI Girl Jayne

Beginning of February, 2007. It was two days before my 13th birthday that I decided I wanted to be baptized, to officially give my life to God. I told my parents that I wanted to be baptized before I turned 13, so the very next day, we went to our church, invited some close friends and family, and my pastor baptized me.

I don’t know what I expected. I guess, if I wanted to be totally honest, I expected to be completely changed. Turned inside out, upside down. I thought that, when I came out of that water, I would feel the Spirit of God rush into my soul, and I’d literally feel the warmth of it in my heart.

That’s what I thought. That’s not what happened.

I will always remember my 13th year of existence as sort of dark and scary. Even though I had marked my commitment to God with baptism, I had never felt further away from Him. I hated nighttime, because that was when I was most afraid.

“Dear God,” I would pray, “please, come closer to me. Let me feel Your presence. Save me.”

I felt like God was ignoring me, and I became bitter and angry at Him. I blamed him for our distant relationship. I felt guilty all the time. I couldn’t even listen to Christian music without a burning pain of guilt in my heart.

New Year’s Eve, 2007. Everyone makes New Year’s resolutions, whether they keep them or not. And I made a resolution too. One that I kept, have kept for the past six years and counting. It was God’s answer to my prayer.

A small voice whispered to me: “Read your Bible every day this year.”

So, January 1st, I began a life-changing commitment. I was using a plan I found in the back of a book that had you read the Bible in a year. So, I read a little out of Genesis, a little out of Psalm, and little out of Matthew. It took me a good half hour to do the assigned verses, and I admit, after the first couple weeks, I was ready to give up. I thought it was too hard.

And then, about the third week into, I picked up my Bible to do my reading. I thought, I can stop now. I don’t have to do this anymore. But then, a surprising counter thought came. No, I have to do this. I WANT to do this.

I haven’t stopped since.

Several things came as a result of that revolution: I became a better person, a better Christian, and I became ever-so-much closer to God.

That 13th year I was pleading for God to draw nearer to me, He was saying, “My beautiful child, I love you. I’m near you. Draw nearer to me.”

I had always heard that the Bible is God’s love letter to us. I always thought, “Yeah, right. Not that book. Have you read it?”

I hadn’t. Not for what it was. The Bible is not some romantic, mushy, squishy love letter. No. It is a TRUE LOVE letter. True love is not always romantic. It is not always pretty. It is not always comfortable.

True love is unconditional.

The Bible is a love letter, the ultimate love story. God created a man and a woman to love, and to care for, and to cherish. He created for them a world of unsurpassed beauty, just for them to enjoy. He doted on his beloved children and walked with them in the garden everyday. They watched sunsets together.

And then, Satan told them that God was withholding from them. That He was keeping from them something they deserved.

God had given them everything, and yet, they believed Satan’s lie, and fell, and were torn away from God’s presence.

And what did God do? He promised that He would get them back. He promised them that He would make a way that they could be with Him again.

That we could be with Him again.

4,000 years later, God sent His one and only Son to DIE in our place. To tear down the barrier that separated us from Him. He loved us that much.

That’s the love story the Bible tells. The one I didn’t understand. The one I realized when God whispered to me on New Year’s Eve six years ago: “My beloved little one, read my love story everyday. Know how much I love you. Draw closer to me.”

That 13th year, I wanted God to do all the work. But He’s already done the work, the work He didn’t have to do, but did because He loved me. That year was up to me.

And while I may not comprehend His love, I know that He loves me.

Truly. Completely. Unconditionally.

Written by PI Girl Jayne, one of the winners of our real-life love stories contest.

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10 Comments

  1. hannah1997

    Posted by hannah1997 on April 29, 2013 at 07:08

    That’s so amazing!! Thank you thank you thank you! Lovely 🙂

  2. Project Inspired

    Posted by 247girlyattire on April 25, 2013 at 11:48

    Thank you so much for posting this, I have been having a really hard time the past few months and this is exactly what I needed to hear! Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you!

  3. Dee

    Posted by Dee on April 24, 2013 at 09:43

    <3 Amen.

  4. Dancer101

    Posted by Dancer101 on April 24, 2013 at 08:08

    This was so perfect for me right now. I felt like I’ve been praying and God hasn’t been answering so I think after awhile I just gave up. This is an awesome reminder that Gods not the problem, its me.

  5. so_shedances

    Posted by so_shedances on April 21, 2013 at 21:27

    “True love is not always romantic. It is not always pretty. It is not always comfortable.”

    This is so powerful and true. I think this is what I’ve been expecting. My relationship with God has not always been pretty. I’ve been upset and angry with Him. There are times when I’ve felt like He wasn’t there or didn’t listen to me. And yet there have been times when I have been completely overwhelmed by His presence. I think God just stretches us, and it hurts sometimes. He wants us to fully rely on Him. Even when things don’t go our way no matter how hard we pray, that’s no reason to give up. It’s difficult and confusing, but it builds our faith.

    Anyway, this article was a blessing. Thanks girl! This was wonderful.

  6. Project Inspired

    Posted by musiclover88 on April 21, 2013 at 21:16

    Thank you so much for sharing this! You have no idea how much I needed this right now! It was literally an answer to a prayer that I desperately needed. Your story is so inspiring to me and has given me more encouragement to keep reading my Bible even when I just want to give up. This post was so amazing! Keep it up! 🙂

  7. SingingSara6

    Posted by SingingSara6 on April 21, 2013 at 18:16

    Absolutely amazing story 🙂 I love your explanation of love 🙂 Thanks so much for sharing and may God bless you as you continue your life with him <3

  8. vanilla

    Posted by vanilla on April 21, 2013 at 17:57

    Thanks for sharing your story! I didn’t really think about the Bible as a love story because it’s not “mushy gushy,” but it’s the truest love story of all!

  9. joeben

    Posted by joeben on April 21, 2013 at 13:13

    Amen! This brought me to tears because I’ve been working on getting closer to God as well and trying really hard to avoid all the temptations Satan is sending my way. I’m very blessed to have read this. Thank you. God bless!

  10. PumpkinGirl

    Posted by PumpkinGirl on April 21, 2013 at 13:04

    This was soooo touching! Thank you for sharing!! 🙂